I love my Hailey Bug more than anything!

This week has probably been one of the most enjoyable weeks I've had with Hailey lately.   Even though we've been really working on her listening skills and making good choices with her friends lately this week has been awesome!  I so enjoy my time with her and just seeing how she sees the world, it's amazing. 

Being a single parent, though has it's definite moments of where I question my sanity, there are times where I am so thankful that I have her to myself.  Even though both Hailey and I drive each other nuts sometimes, we are VERY similar, our bond that we have is amazing.  One thing that I am very proud of and I hope I never loose this is, I KNOW my daughter.  I know what makes her tick and how she works.  She is not a machine with a manual and it isn't the same all the time.  She is not like anyone else...she is Hailey and that's perfect. 

Hailey is a child who has a very defiant side of her where you question where the attitude comes from but also a very soft hearted side where her feelings easily get hurt.  She is a very independent little girl in some areas but also insecure in others.  She may not always want to sit on mommy's lap anymore but she'll sit right next to me to the point that my elbows are stuck to my sides.  She is timid but man is she fearless as well.  Hailey knows no strangers but only friends.  No matter where we go she finds someone to play with.  Rarely is she shy but when she is it's just a few minutes of her hiding her face in my leg and then she's off and I don't see her the rest of the time.  I LOVE how she isn't afraid to really try anything.  She may be hesitant but she will try anything once.  This goes for food and any activity that I put Hailey around. 

One thing that I hope Hailey never doubts, is how much I love her and how proud of her I am.  Her life is not easy and she adjusts so well to things that as a child I would have been majorly stressed out over. 

Some of my favorite moments with Hailey is just seeing and being reminded by how much I effect her life.  For example, not a day goes by that Hailey doesn't hear from me that I love her and that I am proud of her and even though she has heard this every day of her life for over 5 years now, I LOVE the way her face lights up when I say that! 

I love waking her up in the morning and seeing how she is sleeping.  Typically all twirled up in her blankets and sometimes I'm not even sure where her head or feet are, but just to see that little face with the little nose and dark eye lashes so peaceful...wow that makes life so simple.  Or even the moments when I drop her off at daycare and I give her a hug and a kiss and tell her I love her and remind her to use her manners and walk away and she says to me "I love you Mommy"....that is what life is about. 

Even though someday I hope to find someone to get married to and to have that "normal" family life with...part of me isn't ready yet to give up the life I have with Hailey and how our life is just us.  Just last night Hailey climbed in bed with me, which she hasn't done in a while and I asked her if she was ok and she said yeah I just want to be close to you.  What a precious moment even though when I woke up I had no covers and hugging the edge of the bed while Hailey lay sideways twirled up in my blankets leaving me wondering how the heck does she do that?!  She is my girl...and even though we have our rough spots....I love and adore her more than anything.  It's so amazing to be a parent but to be a single parent is a whole new level and wow...I am truly blessed to be her mom!